hi . im feeling messed up right now. idk what to do really. im pissed off with a couple of people around me. ive had enough of this shit srsly. im almost giving up on you. youre the one that makes my day but apparently right now idk why im just fucked up u see. i really have an issue with you which i hate to settle it but i tried so hard that it almost wouldnt work. yes there are some who helped , dont blame me for doing the wrong things. if i did the wrong things , does it even benefit all of you in anything ? i mean come on i can be really mean sometimes , i do whatever shit i wanna do its my problem. if i have an issue with my love life i tend to ignore it so it doesnt bother me. yes im taking this easily , for what the heck must i take this shit seriously when i just feel ure the cause of it even though people think ure not and i am. i dont care what people wanna say or criticise me about my love life. i cant stand being with someone who love me too much . faded feelings? not at all. theres more to it that people doesnt know. so get the fact right guys. i know i rarely post about my feelings on blog but here goes the truth. i just think that ure way too good too much too out too over towards me , yes thats true. so everyone i tell u to shut up cos im talking here , i have to let this go . say whatever you want , cs u aint get anything. theres couple of other issues that has been bothering me. maybe some of you would think i have another feelings for another guy , you got that wrong mag.i seriously am not into any other guys. im making it clear here so please dont judge . anyhoo , i might receive some comments from pple that im being unfair to him , but what could i do? force myself?. no i aint gonna do that alright. its been so long since i need space. ure like almost everyday depending your life on me. who am i to you ? just a girlfriend ? or your wife-to-be who have to feed/care for you 24/7? im getting all this straight. the fact that in the first place i fell for you its bcs i just wanna give it a try . well yes youre the longest relationship i had with , a year and 3months plus. but you see i cant be going like this forever im tired and i need a rest. i know ure sad bcs its like wasting ur freaking time but what am i suppose to do. tell me guys , what am i suppose to do?? i have only half percent of loving you , it sucks. bby please dont make me hate you.